Category Archives: You

Songs of a not so distant past #1

I heard this song sometime back. Liked it at that time, and related to it as well at that time. I dont relate it that much. Time it seems either buries away the pass or makes u forget it locking it away some where..

Neways enuf of bakwas…heres s the song.

I won’t go home without you – Maroon 5

asked her to stay but she wouldn’t listen
She left before I had the chance to say
Oh
The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it’s far too late, she’s gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: “Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?”
Hard to believe that

It’s not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won’t go home without you

The taste of your breath, I’ll never get over
The noises that you made kept me awake
Oh
The weight of things that remained unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: “Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?”
Hard to believe that

It’s not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won’t go home without you

It’s not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won’t go home without you

Of all the things I felt but never really shown
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
I should not ever let you go, oh oh oh

It’s not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won’t go home without you

It’s not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won’t go home without you
And I won’t go home without you
And I won’t go home without you
And I won’t go home without you

[Won’t Go Home Without You lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com%5D

360 Degrees of Inner Turbulence.

They say when you ur moving away from smething, that u just lost, retreat dont walk around looking for things, they might just come back..Ok that was a lousy metaphor but i dont have nothing now.

Some time back, i thought of moving away, not worth it. I promised meselfu that i would take major plans to do the same, albeit i lost out somewhere along the way. And as happens when i dont do things like this yesterday ma mind and ma brain thought of blasting out on me.

Round 1

My mind suddenly outta outta the blue, ran into my brain. Ma brain just didnt have the answer so just backed out. Yesterday i went to sleep a restless man. What should i do, how do i convince abt my love for her

Sometime back when i was talking to a friend of mine on a related topic ma friend mneitoned abt “the alchemist”. The narrater mentiones at one point, a more ad lib here…but somewot like below..if you want something real badm then the universe conspires with you to get it. I wondered did i not want her so bad then i might not have wanted her so bad. But i so did. Coudnt the universe not see it. Maybe i just didnt show it. I stood a mindless man in the train while coming back. Maybe the people didnt see the turbulence whirling thru ma head my eyes seemed to be stationey across outside the door, the distance running away, ma eyes were seeing something else. They were lovestruck again. My brain was trying desperate attempts at reason, but i guess failed due to speed at what ma mind came at it.

My brain sayd havent some of ma close friends told me to move on, it aint worth it. It seemed like a logical comeback. fight emotion with reason. My mind though had other ideas. Its reply

“They all found their love, didnt they, would they understand your mind, your reason

Fair,

Day 1 belonged to ma mind. Among the victory declarations my mind suggested i go for it one last time, give it a month and half. Make an attempt to prove to the universe how bad it was for you, maybe then the universe will conspire on my behalf.

As i tell everyone when in grave thinking spree, sleep n it for a while.

Day 2 Round 2

Was travelling back from work, a little idleness in the train, it was crowded while coming back so sleeping was not an option i had. My brain, fresh and re grouped again came back with all guns blazing.

Brain – Why do you think she might still have something for you.
Mind – Dnt know!

Brain – Didnt she tell you she culdnt make a decision for 2 long years
Mind – Yes

Brain – Ddint she ask you to move on
Mind – Yes

Brain – Has she shown you any hint of ..
Mind – No

Brain – Arent u really different
Mind – Yes

Brain – Didnt u also tell her in your last attempt that if she sayd no, he would just have no choice and wud move on.
Mind – Yes

Then whats stopping ya….

Ma mind didnt seem to have an answer.

It seemed to get quiet. My station came. I got down. It seemed to be over. I had been staring so long i guess my gaze hurt. I was looking at nothing really.

I got down walked a few steps.

Mind – Imagine you like a person more than the world, but i would be ok for her to move on and go ahead an marry someone she didnt know but hope to love and hope he did likewise rather than look back and go to the one who loved her and continue doing so.

Brain freeze.

360 Degrees of one super turbulence.

……coming up

Looking back

I walk, ever so looking back
turning my head looking for you
hoping that maybe you will call for me
dreading that i may have walked too far
and may not hear ya call

i try to get you off my head
its jus abt like harder each day,
i take 10 steps ahead and
then 5 steps back

the suns setting, darkness creeping in
am scared, afraid i may be left alone
i wish you cold walk, with me
step by step, a day at a time…

i know its difficult, but thats how it is
i walk, as i have for some time now,
the calls yours, dont wait too long
the sun setting, nights begun
the distance further away each passing moment
but i can just abt hear you.
faint whispers, they reach very far
that is, if you send them….

finito…

Untitled

I know u dont read my blog. If you read i dont know whether i would put this down. Maybe i would. Have told you how i feel more now then earlier…well another one would be as well..

this aint original, heard the song from nickelback so putting it down …..

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Song – Far Away
Artist – Nickelback
Album – For the Right Reasons

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left
Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and youll never go
Stop breathing if
I dont see you anymore

On my knees, I’ll ask
Last chance for one last dance
Cause with you, I’d withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I’d give it all
I’d give for us
Give anything but I won’t give up
Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
Cause I’m not leaving
Hold on to me and
never let me go