Category Archives: Me

Radio Static

sound waves over my head
encrypted by regional bias
so much for unity
division over voice matters
tis twisting my mind
playing with my neurons
i am trying to make sense
trying hard, it gives me a headache

laughs and conversations i
feel like am out of the sphere
feels like a consipiracy
or is this me coming undone

if this a giving up, it is not
if this a surrender its is not
there cant be a white flag
cuz the paranoia does not ask for defeat

if you think, then dont
if you must act, you must
the future is murked
the smile on my face is crooked


Why am i so irritated?

I have noticed myself getting very agitated and irritated over the last few days and the same is generally at work. But its not work that i am getting at. My work i love, it is everything around it that i am getting hyper about.

Evening brought some calm, but not before the usual getting hyper during the afternoon.

Around evening i was asking myself. What is so important that i am losing sleep over. Probably there is not. I also remembered a friend once telling me, if you do not do it would everything just shut down. Just then i remembered someone saying, “if there is 5 days up and down what is the problem” No there is no problem, its just that why wait for 5 days if you can close it down now.

Well i have thought.

Starting tomorrow morning, my work is all that is for me. Everyone else has to wait in line

Concentration levels have to go up way up.

Yes there is a lot of static that i do not need to hear, so i do need to hear and that is understood. I am not your friend. Am a co-worker lets keep it that way

Before making an opinion wait for 5 seconds and then say it, may be i would find a better way to put it.

Work for 5 days so 5 days do not think about anything other than work for the 8 hours there. Post that no thinking about it.

Primary responsibility is to my head and my heart, everything is second.

A bunch of some old and new things


#Michael Jackson.

There is an MJ special going on channel Vh1. I have not paid attention to TV that much, i know it has been going on for some days now, Vh1 wants to bring in his birthday with some specials about him.

I was watching ‘beat it’ and remembered the amount of MJ clones in school, the dance competitions wherein every year there was some MJ song. For the last few years its been quiet with controversies about him more than reality, i guess that is the price you pay for being famous. I also tried a few of the dance steps but knew from the start i was headed for disaster if i tried them on stage lolzz

MJ actually launched quite a few careers in dance for some of my friends, one of them who i am not in touch but i know he is a big shot dance choreographer in bolly-wood. People who called him names can eat shit now knowing what he does.

Man in the mirror, the earth song, beat it, bad, thriller – some of my mj favorites.


It is good, but i am not feeling happy. I wish it was because of others but i guess it is because of me. Sometimes i feel i should have the free time that some of my colleagues have. Would i not have time to learn. But then i guess more time you get, more you do things other than your goals. So i guess am better off. I have a lot of work i know that. And in a very diff way i should be happy about that. In this recessionary times, less work generally scares you. I need to get more organized than i am right now.


Am starting to wonder, when do you know what is the existence of your living. When do you find what are u in this world for? this question is quiet open. Am i not looking for clues. Am i not reading the fine print. Is it there and i am not reading them.


Harry Potter – The deathly hallows has completely bowled me over. I know the book has been out some time back, quiet a while back. Am reading it now. I had an audio book which i did listen for quite some time. Now when i finished reading this book i felt i was in the story. I love when i get so involved in the story.


My group of friends including me are perennial meat and fish eaters and every now and then we announce what we call crab fest.  Its like a secret call, a call comes on your phone, all it is said is today is crab fest or crabbies are here, that’s all. You are not given the choice you are to be there. Not that i ever uttered no for it. For the uninitiated its when a couple of folks volunteer to cook crabs for the whole junta which is savored by all of us like me in the Sahara finding and oasis.

The latest of this event occurred yesterday, i was sick ok, getting back to being healthy but since Thursday i had fever i thought i would abstain from eating crabs (means eating just one or maybe 2). Well went there quite late, rosh did not make, and that is a long story why.

Rules of Crab-Fest

Beer, Crabs make an awesome combination, Also the rule says you cannot at any time use any mechanical instrument other than your own teeth or some else’s teeth to break down the crab. It is against crab fest policy to break it down with an hammer.

A crab fang must be respected for it juiciness and meat and must and only must be broken down by your bare teeth. You could well ask someone to break it down for you but then if he takes a bite off the meat, sorry no complaints. Also you cannot waste any part of the crab, it must be eaten fully, not doing so could get you no more crabs in the future.

Oh it was an awesome sight, i was sick (mentioned again for empathy sake) but oh how i wish i could eat more, not that any thing would go waste, it simple did not. 

Mr bad presenter – pure amateur stuff

I had to present a topic today. Basically part of the class project that had to be done.

my topic for the set was ‘testin an uat ‘ . was lazy in the makin of the presentation. But i do good presentations. The time limit was 10.

now i dont know what happened here but i guess got jittery. I dont know why. Its something that i have done time an again. Its not that just woke up and presented. I do so many times. This was just pure amateur stuff. Need to sit today and make notes on this.

Who are you?

Who are you. Who who. . . Who who.

those are the first words of the song by “the who” . Brilliant song i must say. Been tryin to figure that out since some time. Tell me if you look in the mirror, what does it make you feel like?