Monthly Archives: September 2008

Week replay

Oh got few days to be 26……oh like a week.

Planning to get the Goa on 2nd of October and bring on my birthday there itself. Its been a marvelous year i guess, but its been sad nonetheless. I did some pretty bad things this year and mostly not been able to forgive myself and the other person has also not forgiven me. Though i hope thats not the case.

On the other hand, the phone has become a bane. Guess i have not learnt how to say no. Maybe i should not have been thinking that the Dale Carneigie’s book “how to say no….” is a useless book.

A very slight comment though i feel is true, came up the other day that did get me thinking thru the day. It was mostly like, dude doya know that sometimes you get us to do things cuz you want brownie points, to which my answer was, believe me i dont gain any brownie points doing anything. On the other hand i actually lose a lot. But the comment made me think but i had to put it on the back burner cuz there were more burning issues coming up.


Do i talk too much

Your comments pls 🙂

Useless and mindless

A friend asked me some weeks back abt the white hair i have on my head and asked me to dye it. I said no. She gave various reasons for it. I said no.

my rationale was simple. I have white hair so wot. Its me. Since when have people started making decisions seeing the hair. And also it portrays what i am not.

The goa trip.

I am so waiting for that goa trip man. Its a break after a long time. Not that i haven taken breaks but those are mostly going on weekend breaks. The sat sun ones and my 3 day weekends are generally drab.

Pichale Saat Dinon mein

Oh the last seven days, man what a turmoil in my head. I think i come so close to a thing i guess but its always like waking up from a dream. Right when you are about to do that thing, good or bad, you eyes open and the worlds paranoia rushes in. This time it was common sense as well. An guess what my gut feels actually was right. i have basically lost trust now in a lot of things. Losing my faith in me has been the latest casulty. I no longer feel the way i perceived myself.

I once thought what a loser i am, then figured wait i didnt get so bad so maybe i am better than losers. Now not really am one of them.

What am i doing

i wonder if i am bag of bullshit. Nah i guess am not but some times i just feel that i am all gas. I can talk the best crap that comes. I can talk for hours of how and when and why things should be as they should be but when it comes to doing that i suck of best withdraw. Wait before you tell me that i am not you know how it is, but i am and you must agree.

Am sure i could be many of the things i wanted to be but all the procrastination has done me in all the time and being lazy. I guess this has been quoted here like a huge number of times. see i even dont keep track of things. Then i tell people, oh i forgot and all that. but truth is i am just too lazy and selfish.

Well i forget birthdays, why… i don’t think its because i generally forget things but because i am just lazy.

Nice guys finish last

Nice guys finish last—————

update – this was written at a time when i was mostly thinking nothing.

Funny thing in my head

Its funny and scary at the same time.

i was out wid a friend, and i really like spending time with her. Am not sure what it is. Am kinda happy for me but i am scared. The point is chances of me doing something stupid are more than me doing something intelligent.

Am not sure am looking for anything other than being good friends. but i dont wanna miss the bus again, then asking myself WHAT IF. the answer to that question sets the mind on fire.

The weekend is over, i wish i had more time.

Untitled XIX and XX

Trying to work these below in workable songs….

brown eyes, black hair
something that i like
super wacky an lil miss bitch
seems just made for me

too near yet too scared to go
near as that might wake me up

dream inside another dream
will this sort out the issues
or she will complicate this further
do it should i let it go
the flood of thoughts make me numb

too scared


i know i will survive you
thats the clue i have for you
but it seems that you dont wnat to
give it one change and let it flow

if the road gets hard i will help you
to walk around the stones they throw at you
maybe in the end there might be none
but you still will have me next to you

oh i wonder why cuz
i dont know why i feel so
is it just me who think so
help me with this so we grow


This is why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

From: Dolphy D’Souza
Cc: Vinod Noronha
Sent: Friday, September 12, 2008 5:49 PM


RE: Christian Schools in Raigad District targeted by the local Education Department as they were closed on August 29 in solidarity and support of the Orissa victims.
The Bombay Catholic Sabha [BCS] demands that this circular [copy enclosed ] is immediately withdrawn. Demands the immediate suspension of the concerned Education Officer. Wants adequate police protection for the School Institutions / Personnel in Maharashtra
BCS to launch agitation if this is not done immediately.

We are shocked at the ridiculous circular issued by the Block Education Officer Raigad District questioning the patriotism and nationalism [ copy of the circular enclosed] and summoning the school principals for a meeting on September 16 to discuss questions which are as follows:
1. Is the national anthem sung in your school?
2. Are the lessons on Saints taught in the school?
3. Is Religion taught in your school?
4. Are the pictures of the National Leaders displayed in your school and where?

We are equally shocked that this circular was issued under the pressure and direction of the local Zilla President of the BJP.

We need to know the following from the Chief Minister / Education Minster of Maharashtra:
1. Is this Circular issued under the direction of the Education Minister?
2. Is this Circular being issued selectively to the Christian Schools?

We need to respectfully advise the concerned Government Authorities that the Christian Institutions are protected under the Constitution under Article 30 which stipulates the rights of the minorities to establish, administer and run the Institutions of their choice.

We do not have to put the badge of patriotism on our shoulders as the work of the Institutions and Personnel is committed and involved in nation building by educating the children of all communities.

We therefore demand the following:

1. Immediate withdrawal of the said Circular.
2. Suspension of the concerned education official
3. We fear for the safety of the Institutions and the Personnel. Adequate police protection for all the Institutions in Maharashtra.

Needless to say, if our requests are not complied with, than the The Bombay Catholic Sabha will have no options but to launch a public agitation to protect our rights guaranteed under the Constitution.

Best Regards,
Dolphy D’souza
St Michael’s Church,
Mahim, Mumbai 400 016.
Tel: 24463853 / 9820226227